Crush.

Not the liking crush but the breaking crush.

The second phone call I received this morning stuck with me the whole day, even up 'til now. It disturbs me. I wish it hadn't happened the way it did. To sum it up, that phone call conversation was unpleasant. I now hope to straighten things out with my father.

Today was fun. I went places and hung out with people. Again, I felt that feeling of, I guess, being out on my own, and not in a positive independent way. It just has to take some getting used to for me, because I grew up in a way where I never could stay out or go out so late and much. People may read this and be like, "what the heck..." but thats how I feel. Its a bit difficult for me to explain but I'm sure the modern person is smart enough to understand. And its because I've always been somewhere where my parents knew, now thats changing. Moving on...

Anna's birthday party was fun. I ate four plates of food and was not stuffed at the end of it. That was because I didn't eat for the whole day and it worked out fine. From going to many parties in my life, I've learned to be prepared in specific ways. I try not to eat a lot before the party because I know the host wants me to eat and sometimes if you don't they feel offended. I've witnessed, myself and others, who say, "no thanks, I'm good," when asked to eat. Its awkward. So, I'm over all of the nervousness and shyness of going to parties and celebrations. If someone asks you if you want to eat, eat, if they ask you to relax, relax; it's all gravy. Happy 18th birthday Anna! And I hope you love my gift!

Kicked it with D again (again and again and again.) We did more mods on my car. Its so spectacular of how my car has been modified these past weeks. Everything all started over two weeks ago, and after the drop, we can chill for a bit. But really though, its jaw dropping of how much work we've done in the time we did it in. We're really innovative and we do not plan on quitting anytime soon. Thanks again D!

So now I'm here chilling and anticipating. I hope everything ends well and my father and I can reach an understanding or agreement, because having hostility between family members is just not right. This is only temporary, because I know we can overcome.

:] G'night.