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Reminder: Blog about today, March 31st, 2008, because it was definitely blog-worthy.

Over and out....
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First and foremost, Happy Birthday to my brothers Renato and Reggie. I'll always have love for you both because we grew up together.


...I don't know what I'm still doing up. It's late and I have school tomorrow. I guess my body is still used to vacation time, but I'm smarter than that. Luckily, I don't have first tomorrow, but instead I set up a Starbucks date with my homies. So, I still have to rise early.

Today was a good day. I was on a serious trip however, not a trip as in going places, a trip as in I was trippin'u. I thought that I had two research papers, one for english and one for psychology, due this week. That, the english one was due on Wednesday and the psych one was due tomorrow, or today rather. I was seriously tripping, again I say.

I had errands to run today. I had to ship shoes, go to the library, and go to Goodwill to buy a piece of wooden furniture for art class. So amidst it all, again... I was trippin. I originally planned to begin my Monday bright and early at 5:30 AM playing ball with Cuts and my church brothers. That didn't happen because I didn't wake up on time. Nor, did Cuts; he slept at 4:30 AM. So when I woke up, I freshened up and went to Cuts house to box up some shoes. I also bought us breakfast; how nice of me. We boxed up the shoes and ended up hanging out for a bit. We chilled, ate, and watched Monk. I did only plan to stay as long to do what I needed to do, I was running on a busy schedule, but friendship just has a way of making things chill. My plan was to go to his house, mail the shoes, go to Goodwill and after all that be back in time for the Library to open.

I knew it all along, all throughout break, that I needed to act on my books quickly. That, I needed to check out the books that were on hold for me ASAP. That never happened though, I waited until the last minute (and I still am.) Back to the story, so I didn't fulfill that plan. By the time I was done hanging out with Cuts, it was time for the library to (supposably) open. I then went to the library. Long story short, even though I'm going to explain, it was closed. Days prior to yesterday, I've been going on the library's website to check the business hours and there were red text saying it'd be closed March 31. I never made the connection that that would be today. And adding to my stress, when I thought those papers were due, I had two crucial books waiting for me.

I said F it all and decided to go home. Allow me to say it again, "I was on a trip." I referred to it as being in Unkville, Unk-Central, or later declared as Ptown, Punk Town. I was punking myself.

I'm going to cut things short....

So, later I found out that I've forgotten that my psych paper was due at the end of the year. Dumb me. I already knew that my english paper was due on Wed, so that did lift some weight off my shoulders. But, I did also discover that one of my art pieces are due tomorrow. I tried to work on it a few hours ago, I didn't finish. It's not that important to me at the moment.

I'm all over the place right now, so indecisive, hence why I'm still awake.

I decided that I've got to finally find a piece of wooden furniture. So I swooped up Cuts, yeah, I saw him twice in a day, and we went to Goodwill. That trip, a good kind of trip, was fun. Yes.

Returning, I swooped up Steph because she needed to use my printer. Then, plus my sister, we left and I dropped my friends home. Ate and I went to practice.

Ok, so that was the choppy version of my day. You get the idea. Now to the present:

I'm sitting here, not feeling so well. I'm stressed because of the things around me, and I know that I should not feel any of this. Is it me? Is the problem within me? Do I need to fix it myself? I don't know. I do know though, that this will pass. I'm in another one of my "emo" phases, but I'm not so emo right now. Today was probably just a major head-case that's still with me. Reeking havoc on my health and future. School, my high school assignments... they don't really matter. Truth. Right now, college seems like a drag to me but I know that's not what it's going to be. I know... I'm going through the motions. I have excuses, but I can't help but feel that I'm just complaining.

I have a valid excuse for now working on my assignments over break. I really, truly wanted to though. I also wanted to hear the messages my teacher left for my parents, but I never got to. Bottom line, I didn't have the, key word, quality time. I had time, but not time destined for school work. Is it my fault? I worked four long hard days out of this "spring break." I knew times could get like this, but I wanted to get a job. Once again, am I just complaining?

I've gotten through things before and I've swallowed my pride before. Just each time I've got to, it always hurts in a different way.

I believe blogging this has relieved me a bit and now I feel like going to bed. (Yay! It worked!) Yeah, hopefully I'll go. Gotta get things set for today before I can officially fall asleep. Then, once I'm there I've got the business of actually falling asleep. That is a bittersweet problem for me. Gosh, how I don't like that word anymore. I've had episodes of insomnia, and I love them. To me, being a bit of an insomniac is cool.

I think I should shut up now. Bye.